He wished there was more time.
#How could he say anything? How could the Doctor find the words that he wanted to say to his Rose? What kind of luck did he have to find an exact frequency that allowed him to say whatever he wanted to Rose one more time? But he can’t #he can’t say anything because it hurts too much. The words catch in his throat because he’s spent this entire regeneration trying to forget how much it hurts #He vowed after he saw them one last time to try as hard as he could to never think of her again…or Martha or Donna or Jack or any of them. Not even Mickey the Idiot because they all just remind him of the pain. Yes yes of course there were brilliant moments with all of them. They helped him heal. They made him the man he is today but to think of them to have the chance to speak to them…especially to her…it caused too much pain. He wanted to remember while simultaneously forgetting so the only thing he could say to Rose…his Rose…was ‘Hello.’ #He couldn’t even manage her name#the name that could tear apart the fabric of reality if uttered in the wrong universe#it would tear the fabric of his hearts #He hears the faint whisper of her voice saying ‘Doctor?’ before it cuts out #and when it does he wishes it hadn’t but he knows he has to keep moving forward or he’ll be lost forever in his desire to listen to Rose’s voice and its painful beauty for the rest of his life. Because she’s not JUST Rose Tyler anymore. She’s so much more. She represents so much loss #so much happiness#everything the Doctor promised to forget and it floods back in an instant.
^^^^^^^ BLESS THAT TAG